To The Beautifull Project: After watching the TED Talk: ‘Stripped: The Art of Being Seen’, I am posting this picture on social media. I haven’t before because I was embarrassed about my cellulite showing- never mind that I am having a wonderful day, doing something I enjoy, with the person I love. Thank you for the courage, the love, and for “going first”.
I took my first drink when I was 11 years old. I took my last drink and used my last drug when I was 44. I watched alcoholism kill my mother and ruin countless lives. I tried so hard to numb the every feeling I had because I was scared of being vulnerable. I found out that without vulnerability there is no growth. This is me, almost one year sober and happier and more content than I have ever been. #iwentfirs
I went first in education earning an MBA with two young children at home while working full-time. I went first in acknowledging the involuntary pain that was inflicted on me as a child. I went first in sharing my story from my point of view without worrying about the judgement that was going to placed upon me. I went first in accepting the idea that I have NOTHING to be ashamed of and EVERYTHING to be proud of as I was once broken and now feel more together than ever. I went first in being brave when others though I should remain silent. I went first when others thought I was too ambitious. I went first when others were too frightened and needed a guiding light. I went first so that someone else may decide to do the same. I went first and I will continue to GO, continue to GROW, continue to LOVE, continue to THRIVE, continue to FIGHT, continue to INSPIRE and continue to be SEEN. I am BeautiFull!
The Beautifull Project reminds us that beauty comes in many shapes and sizes - with the scars and bruises of life. The only way to shift shame around our bodies is to desensitize ourselves to the imperfections we see in ourselves and often… hate. I’m getting a head start on that now by wearing a shirt I “love”, but figured I’d put on too much weight and didn’t deserve to wear it. Realizing now that’s BS. So, here I am. Fave shirt. No shame.