This Brave Body: A Survival Story

I see the body I have deprived and depleted and poisoned and starved. This brave body that has never left me.

I can recall doing each of those things in the name of health, and with the hope that I might finally find a way to belong. And when each of those things failed me, I walked myself right up to the edge of this life and peered over the side. I discovered what it means to want to die in one breath, but pray to be saved in the next.

And I am still here.

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Leaning into loving food

Imagine if food became your practice for intentionally loving something with no expectations. Can you imagine what that would do the rest of your world? Only good things can come from teaching yourself how to love unconditionally, no matter what the outcome.

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kate j
Loving This Body: Why Nicole Said Yes

I have not perfected the art of loving my body, but I am committed to the path that heads in that direction, and being a part of The Beautifull Project is going to help guide me. I hope it provides the same inspiration and sense of belonging to you too.

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Sarah Stevens
The Proposal: How I Wed my Work Wives

And in that moment I knew what I needed. I needed a permanent partner. I needed to become one part of a working whole. I needed a work wife in the worst possible way and I knew just the person for this proposal.So, I asked my new blogging badass friend Kate to join me for coffee, and nervously prepared to propose to the work wife woman of my dreams. And she said yes!

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Sarah Stevens
Stripped: A Naked New Years Revolution

But you know what? I’m starting to discover that it doesn’t have to stay this way. After decades of managing my fear by finding ways to disappear, I have grown both achingly tired and desperately lonely. This isn’t Kindergarten. I can’t use my mom as my shield. And I seem to have run out of places to hide. So, I’ve decided to strip instead. I’ve determined the most certain route to freedom is to reveal to you the parts of myself I’m most afraid you’ll discover.

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Sarah Stevens
Here's Why I've Been Dodging Pictures...

Here’s the real deal: I’m not ready.  You see, photos can be forever – that’s really kind of the point. They mark our space in time and progress and placement, and it’s been a while since I believed deep down that I was showing up as my best self anywhere. For anything. For anyone

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kate j
It's Thanksgiving week - I see you

I got thinking about those mashed potatoes. About that pie. About living a life of restriction. What if all that restriction is keeping us from the very best parts of this crazy life? I’m not saying eating a crockpot full of mashed potatoes will make it all heaven, but would it really be so bad to actually eat them and enjoy them?

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kate j
I'm Hungry: This is Me

My name is Kate Johnson. I’m a mom, I’m a farm wife, I’m a writer. I believe our greatest truths hide within our greatest fears. I believe living fully has little to do with the physical space we take in this world and everything to do with how we choose to show up there. And I am hungry.

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kate j
Failure is Never Forever

I remember wishing that it would all just end in that place. Not really wanting to die, but really not wanting to live. Not like this. I could not imagine living with this sadness. This hollowed core. This kind of failure following me around forever.

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Sarah Stevens
A Space Too Small to Hold Me

Our purpose finds us on every possible path, at every conceivable twist and turn. It waits for us as we saunter, it races ahead when we sprint. 

And when we stumble on it, as we tend to do, we must collect only enough courage to step into the ring, using whatever beautifull body brought us to the moment in the first place.

And if the world has determined that the space where our purpose lies is to small for us....

Well then I think we should go ahead and shatter them.

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Sarah Stevens
Fat Bods and Bikinis: A Battle at the Beach

But for people in fat bodies, the beach is a battlefield, marked by the wounded warriors who looked square in the eyes of belonging and thought, "Fuck it. I'm going to do it anyway. I'm going to ignore the stares, the whispers, the giggling, the pointing. I'm going to strip off my clothes, baring my body to the world and dare to exist here. I'm going to play with my kids and run into the water and lose myself in the waves. I'm going to be even when I don't belong.

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Sarah Stevens
So Your Kid Called Me Fat

That little girl was following the formula, trained to observe bodies and talk about them. And she didn't know that fat deviated from the formula. And who can blame her really? Not this fat woman. Not even one little bit.

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Sarah Stevens
Be Full: The Swimsuit Edition

I am familiar with the terror that can sink its claws into the soft ground of our flabby thighs or our doughy tummies. I realize that it is scary to consider what someone might see if they really do see all of us.

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Sarah Stevens